IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY!
Dance
Happy one year Anniversary to me. If you asked me this time last year where I think I would be this time this year? I would honestly say...
Where I have been
Some of you may have wondered where I am and how I am doing. Others, probably 99.9 % don't give a damn and probably roll their eyes and...
Getting Help
I was laying on my bed struggling to breath. Struggling to get my nerves under control. I needed to get my shit together. I was doing...
Good days and Bad days
It's funny, Monday I was so excited to got to Tennesse for a photography clinic. Memphis, Tennessee to be exact. I was excited on...
Darkness
In my darkest hours I have cried out to you Lord. In my lowest moments I have begged for your mercy. I have ignored you, cursed you and...
I'll be okay
Woke up last night with a massive headache. Searched high and low for Advil or Tylenol. What I found was a bottle of( 20 )150mg tablets...
work
I should have never went back to work so soon. Yes, Kevin you were right , I was wrong. You better save this blog as evidence of me...
To be me again
I often find myself laying awake in bed at night thinking back on these last couple of months. To say it's been hard is putting it...
My Mom
Just the thought of my mom makes me smile! She says she doesn't have favorites, but she does. She's lying! According to her she never...
I wish
I think the hardest part of all this pretending to be okay when I am not, is trying to convince even myself of my lies. It's exhausting...
Being Honest
Some days.... are good!!! I feel like ME! Other days like Yesterday... I just want to die. Its all too much. I didn't ask for help. It...
Addiction
Addiction is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die
Plans
Kevin and I made a plan. We had everything all set. Surgery, Recovery , Taper. In that order. Each step had a plan. We talked about it,...
Taper 2
I'm crying out to God to give me the strength I need to get through these last few tapers. I've walked miles upon miles. I've walked for...
We Rallied
Life is rough. Especially these last few weeks. Almost so, that I wasn't sure we all were going to make it. Tensions were so high in the...
Day 2 of Tapering
I am hot, I am cold. My whole body shakes while sweat pours out of every pore in my body. I have nothing left in my body to expel. I wish...
I've Been Caught
There is so much to do around this house!!! Never mind when there is someone down for the count! I was only trying to help! Bailey was...
Hard Times
I think it's all catching up to me, I think it's catching up to all of us. The whole past year..... Trigiminial Neuragial, Dr....
Recovery
It's not easy. Lets just start with that! I think I should start with telling you the good parts before I tell the sad, hard and ...
7 Days
It's 7 days before I start tapering off of Lyrica. Lyrica is marketed as an alternative to opioid medications. Like opioid drugs,...